Introductions Are In Order . . .

     Once in a while I get a sense of urgency to do SOMETHING constructive. An overbearing urge of motivation to be constructive and take a jab back at life. Although, it's short lived and my life leads back into repetitiveness, I can't help but always keep the feeling of there being more to life and it's up me to push myself to keep life interesting in a positive way.
     I have my wife and three children and are in the process of having a home built in a quiet peaceful neighborhood on the outskirts of the county but that's not what I mean by being interesting. Have you ever seen the movie where people look like they get paid to be in exotic places in far reaches of the planet? I want that. Not all the time but enough to appreciate it and anticipate it again in the near future.
     I work a normal M-F 7:30-4:00 job and get paid well to do what is I do. The typical benefits, vacation time, 401k and pension plan. Seems pleasant during this harsh economical times that we live in, I know but I've always felt from a young age I was meant to do more. Let me emphasize, I don't mean stardom or riches and all glamor that comes with it. It's actually more boring than that. It's almost like a sense of continuous self accomplishment. I am proud of the few things I do right with my life but it takes a continuos effort and it's really never over. Marriage and Kids specifically. I've made a bit more positive decisions in the recent past and am happy with my position in life but it hasn't always been the case with me. I have a laundry list of mistakes that, at times crippled me. Made me feel like there was never any light in the world. I guess what I'm trying to get at is, what this book is going to be about? My self reflection of how my life has gone up and down? The solid good fun times and some gravely bad extinguished times or the poor decisions and the strong decisions? The creation of rainy day peers.

Note to self . . . .

       Along with the ability to love comes the ability to forgive. Forgive the ones you've chosen to love. . . . That's something I wish came naturally to me growing up. It was one of the hardest lessons in life not understanding situations or being prideful. Pride can ruin good things in your life, so it's best to practice humility whenever the opportunity presents itself.
     People say life is too short but what i've already learned is that your years of youth are even shorter and those are the years that set root for who you are to become. If there are things you never learned in your youth, I see it highly improbable that you'll learn them as an adult. When I say adult, I don't mean 18. 18 is still a baby. There still so much you need to understand about the world before you can take it head on and be successful at it. It takes many years and many experiences to learn what is needed to exist in this world. People's inability to understand is why there are many problems in this world. Their unwillingness to see every adversity as an opportunity to learn and grow as a human being. Through those experiences of feeling pain, anger, sadness, pride and hopelessness. You need to  learn how to process them and learn from the constant mistakes you will make in your life till you finally start making the right choices that lead life back to a balance. While in a balanced life is when you can look back at the life you've lived so far and feel perspective. You can feel like you've grown as a person but realize life is nothing but a learning experience and adversity is around every corner waiting. With the "Perspective" you've gained from your past, you'll know how to better handle adversity when it presents itself and won't seem as difficult to get through.
     Lead your life in this world with your heart. Your heart is of God and it reflects the ability God has and that's to love. His ability to love was passed on and was the greatest gift we've been given. Do not lead your life with your head for your mind lives in this world and God is not part of this world. Love and continue to love regardless of the adversity you've faced in life. Smile, love and keep a positive mental attitude and we'll be fine.